[00:00.00] 作词 : David Kraft aka The Cratez/Joyner Lucas/Tim Wilke aka The Cratez[00:00.00] 作曲 : David Kraft aka The Cratez/Joyner Lucas/Tim Wilke aka The Cratez[00:00.00]Go ahead and call me a coward[00:16.23]And say that I'm not strong, because I'm not like you[00:19.42]Go ahead and call me crazy[00:20.86]Cause I live in a maze, tell me how about you?[00:23.68]I think I live in my head[00:25.16]Sometimes I think that I'm dead, I hide behind my youth[00:27.81]Know I been losing my mind[00:29.39]And I'm a little behind, step inside my shoes[00:32.50]Cause I've never been happy with myself[00:34.02]And I don't need no one feeling bad for me[00:35.99]Trying to offer me pity and throw jabs at me[00:38.25]Wanna give me advice and then laugh at me[00:40.28]Behind closed doors, just close the door[00:42.32]Let me be by myself, just me and myself[00:45.63]I'm tired of living, I cry[00:46.77]I hear it's easy to die, I wanna see for myself[00:50.06]And I know that sounds crazy to everyone else[00:51.66]But I'm depressed as ****, stressed as ****[00:54.06]Ain't no medicine that could cure what's the test as drugs[00:56.16]I mean, I need extra love[00:58.36]And that ain't even enough, said that ain't even enough[01:00.53]And where the **** is God? (God, God)[01:02.56]Damn, maybe I ain't believing enough[01:04.76]But today we gonna see if He's real[01:06.46]And if He is, I guess I'm prolly going to hell[01:08.56]Look, I ain't wanna die like this[01:11.37]I ain't picture my life like this[01:12.81]They don't know what it's like like this[01:15.01]Pretending I'm happy so I can smile like this, and laugh like you[01:17.73]Sometimes I wonder if I ever act like you[01:20.08]Could I finally fit in and maybe relax like "woo!"[01:22.46]Or would you feel lost without me?[01:24.47]Cause honestly, I think the world is better off without me[01:26.59]And my mind's spinning, this is the line finish[01:28.47]Truth is I don't care how they feel about my feelings[01:30.35]I made up my mind, I'm going out like Robin Williams[01:32.80]I guess I'm not the Ordinary People of John Legend[01:34.93]And I've been suicidal since the day I was nine, ****[01:37.56]Okay, the day I was nine[01:39.09]I've been tired of being bullied, couldn't stay out the fire[01:41.50]Grandma told me I should take it one day at a time[01:43.70]And dammit, look at me now, ****[01:46.08]****, pen runnin' out, ****, fu—, ugh[01:54.52]Look, just know it's a new day[01:56.51]But if you reading this, then it's probably too late, blaow![01:59.76]Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry[02:03.96]But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me[02:08.02]I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry[02:12.38]But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me[02:16.81]Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry[02:21.17]But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me[02:25.37]I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry[02:29.82]But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me[02:52.53]I hope you got what you wanted[02:53.33]I hope you finally happy, it's too late for you[02:56.65]Been going out of my mind[02:57.82]You don't know how many times that I done prayed for you[03:01.40]I hope you hear me, goddammit[03:02.26]Cause I got so much **** that I wanna say to you[03:05.45]I used to shine, now I'm all in the dark[03:07.36]I remember I used to tell you to follow your heart[03:09.36]But goddammit, look at you now, it's all of your fault[03:11.40]How could you? Maybe it's my fault[03:13.59]I shoulda paid more attention to what you been doin'[03:15.77]Maybe I should have been more of an influence[03:17.90]I can't believe that you're dead, I fu-[03:19.87]I read your letter and all I could do is have mixed feelings about it[03:22.36]But I'll forever be attached to you, damn[03:25.26]Part of me feels bad for you[03:26.75]A part of me feels like you weak and I'm mad at you[03:28.86]And I don't mean to be insensitive[03:30.20]But I don't understand how we couldn't prevent this ****[03:32.50]You took the easy way out, goddammit, you did[03:34.69]I mean, look what you did, I'm so ******* upset[03:36.89]How could you be so selfish?[03:39.19]*****, how could you be so selfish?[03:41.68]Now you're gone, you done left me so helpless[03:43.71]I wonder what God thinks, I hope you in God's place[03:46.10]Behaving yourself[03:47.99]Yo, what the **** you gotta say for yourself? (say for yourself)[03:51.06]Look, I really feel lost without you[03:52.87]I hate the fact you think the world is better off without you[03:55.09]And my mind's spinning, this is the line finish[03:57.02]Truth is, I don't care how you feel about my feelings[03:59.01]And I'd be lying to you if I told you I'm fine, listen[04:01.39]I know that you can hear me, all I need is like five minutes[04:03.33]I just wanna reach inside the casket and pull you out[04:05.52]I'm sorry this is something that we both couldn't figure out[04:07.75]I wish I could hear you now, is your soul missing?[04:10.16]I wonder if you could do it again, would you do it different?[04:12.27]Tell me what death is like[04:14.32]Was it meant for you, brodie? Did the heaven support it?[04:16.71]Are you ******* happy now? Did you get what you wanted?[04:18.69]Isn't this what you wanted? I feel the temperature falling[04:20.88]And you've been suicidal back then you were nine?[04:23.98]Yeah, even back then, you was nine[04:25.75]We was living on the edge, couldn't stay out the fire[04:27.81]Grandma told us we should take it one day at a time[04:29.90]And damn it, look at you now, ****[04:32.81]But it's a new day[04:33.79]And if you can't hear me, it's probably too late, ****![04:36.81]Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry[04:40.60]But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me[04:45.42]I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry[04:49.35]But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me[04:53.88]Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry[04:58.09]But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me[05:02.26]I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry[05:06.76]But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me[05:10.99]Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry[05:15.56]But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me[05:19.89]I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry[05:24.16]But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me[05:28.72]Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry[05:32.70]But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me[05:37.10]I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry[05:41.42]But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me