What If I Was Gay - Joyner Lucas/Eminem.mp3

[00:01.424][Verse 1: Joyner Lucas]
[00:12.048]Uh
[00:12.761]What if I told you that I was different?
[00:15.380]What if I told you that something's missin'?
[00:17.977]And what if I told you we're not alike
[00:19.806]And the way that I feel inside is different than what you picture
[00:23.618]What if I told you I feel divided?
[00:26.237]Keep to myself and I'm awfully quiet
[00:28.989]And what if I told you I been conflicted by my own thoughts
[00:31.919]Trapped in the dark, and I tried to hide it
[00:34.459]No, I'm not a slave to no ****in' fairy tale
[00:36.735]I bet you think that you know me very well
[00:39.604]Make no mistake, this is not a cry for help
[00:42.975]'Cause I don't owe no one no explanation on how I feel
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[00:44.498][Pre-Chorus: Joyner Lucas]
[00:44.897]But on the real, what if I told you that I was brave?
[00:47.817]I grew up different than I was raised
[00:50.701]But still, what if I told you I'm out of place? Wait
[00:53.917]What if I told you that I was gay?
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[00:55.897][Chorus: Joyner Lucas]
[00:56.151]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[00:58.730]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[01:01.154]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[01:04.228]Duh nuh
[01:06.821]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[01:09.399]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[01:12.062]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[01:17.739]Duh nuh
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[01:19.029][Verse 2: Joyner Lucas]
[01:19.238]Yeah
[01:19.658]What if I told you I'm not alright?
[01:21.207]I mean, I don't feel dead, but I'm not alive
[01:23.642]And what if I told you, "I'm not like you"
[01:25.929]And the shit I've been goin' through, it'll prolly make you cry
[01:29.790]And what if I told you, "I'm not this"
[01:32.372]And the person you think you know don't exist
[01:34.988]Look, I'm not who you know, I'm not who you wish
[01:37.034]I'm not who you want me to be, what you want from me isn't this
[01:40.753]I grew up in church where I couldn't be myself
[01:43.235]I felt like a prisoner, couldn't leave my cell
[01:45.909]They told me, "God don't like ugly," and this an ugly world
[01:48.328]And if I ever seen things different, then I would burn in hell
[01:50.722]
[01:51.013][Pre-Chorus: Joyner Lucas]
[01:51.225]And on the real, this is not new, this is not a phase
[01:53.697]I grew up different than I was raised
[01:56.490]But still, what if I told you I'm out of place? Wait
[01:59.556]What if I told you that I was gay?
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[02:02.022][Chorus: Joyner Lucas]
[02:02.304]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[02:04.467]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[02:07.146]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[02:09.921]Duh nuh
[02:12.555]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[02:15.424]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[02:18.122]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[02:21.205]Duh nuh
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[02:23.542][Verse 3: Eminem]
[02:24.842]What if I told you I'm homophobic?
[02:27.203]And you have zero control over your impulses
[02:29.983]And the genetic flaw in your chromosomes is the culprit
[02:32.601]It's something I can't sugarcoat, it's repulsive
[02:35.320]We were homies, since children, I thought it
[02:37.691]But thought I was buggin', though
[02:38.816]'Cause we'd sit, chill and just talk chicks
[02:40.508]Now how can we be friends still after all this
[02:43.126]Unless, I can convince you to repent
[02:45.018]Ask God to forgive you for your sins
[02:46.808]And begin healin' your conscience
[02:48.628]And rid you of this sick illness that causes it
[02:51.522]Part of me wishes you'd kept this shit, still in the closet
[02:53.863]I'm white but I'm gettin' mixed feelings like Logic
[02:56.558]Yeah, I'm pissed off a little, this is a choice
[02:59.416]We were supposed to be boys
[03:00.809]You're actin' like this ain't optional
[03:02.374]What if I said you was weak?
[03:03.887]'Cause you don't got the strength to conquer some biological monster that's part of you
[03:07.963]That's responsible for them homosexual thoughts
[03:10.247]If you don't want a lecture, part
[03:11.644]Like a sofa section or long as you
[03:13.487]Make your decision and stand by it, but I can't be beside it
[03:16.450]'Cause for me, that'd be next to impossible
[03:18.724]Or you learn to control your urges
[03:21.224]You say, "It's like pullin' teeth and morals are oral surgeons"
[03:23.894]But how would you even know anyways if you're a virgin
[03:26.605]Why can't you be a normal person?
[03:28.270]What if I tried steerin' you towards a girlfriend?
[03:30.162]Wouldn't work, would it? You seem pretty surefooted
[03:33.341]I'm sure good at judgin', but I have no right
[03:35.570]I know goodbye seems cold, right?
[03:37.488]Not even a flicker of hope like a strobe light
[03:40.250]As I leave and I swear I stayed up that whole night
[03:42.896]And no, I didn't know you would go right home and go take your own life
[03:46.506]I ain't mean for that shit to happen, I said I won't cry
[03:49.419]I let the best friend that I've ever known die
[03:52.391]Alone, was gonna tell you the next day
[03:54.941]I'm so sorry, I'm fightin' my own demons, I won't lie
[03:57.680]They won't leave me alone, eating at my soul, this whole time
[04:00.905]I've been tortured, imprisoned in my own mind
[04:03.973]A born again Christian but Lord if you're listenin'
[04:06.616]We might be headed for a collision
[04:08.695]'Cause when I told my boy I couldn't support his decision
[04:11.485]I was tryna make it seem like a choice, when it isn't
[04:14.196]Can't be cured with a prayer to Saint Jude
[04:16.569]What If I told you my wish never came true?
[04:19.179]What if I'm a hypocrite who's afraid to just face truth? Wait
[04:23.368]What if I told you I'm gay too?
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[04:25.261][Chorus: Joyner Lucas]
[04:25.687]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[04:27.894]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[04:30.512]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[04:33.287]Duh nuh
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[04:38.924]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[04:41.859]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
[04:46.241]Duh nuh
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[04:52.792]Duh nuh, duh nuh nuh duh
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